How Submarines Movies Became my Comfort Food of Choice =)

This is a Story nothing but a Story, Tale and what happened way back when and the connection I made today. For those that want to make this into something it is not, guess what, it is just a tale being told nothing more. - warning due to being misinterpeted =)

One Genius, One Dreamer, we both had Same Opinions of Where We Wanted to Be and Who We Associated With – Long Story, but fun tale of just another of Kevin’s Observations as he goes into his 2nd 50 years =)

Right off the bat. This is not going to be about cars or anything automotive related, but just an interesting analogy that I made from last night to today. And it's funny because I go back to it. And it's. It's just kind of weird. It's really kind of weird. Um. Let's go back in time.

Let's go back in time. I just fired one attorney and I hired another attorney. And his name was Vince. This was during my divorce, and he just had a client that unfortunately could not ‘accept’ being divorced and he was Jewish as I am.

He asked, “Are you okay with not being part of the Society, the group, the crowd?”

I was like umm pardon me Vince

“What are you asking me?”

This was our first meeting and right after I told him I had no money, and my ex had all the ties and money. I just recently gave him it, and he gave me my note for 2010 Honda Pilot with 196,000 miles.

He was like "Keep your Honda; “you are going to need it when you are seeing your boys =)!”

Which is story in all, but I might have waited a decade or so no lawsuits lol =) “

Basically, that was my only asset I had worth almost something. 

It did have new tires on it, so I told him that it was worth at least the price I paid for those. Lol

The gentlemen that he was said “Keep Your Pilot Kevin, we will go month by month.” 

Anywhoo, going back to whatwasIsaying. 

He was like "

I had this client, and he was so broken up by what was happening and his status in the group, crowd, whatever, he tries to off himself!”

Vince, being the savior, 

“Well I had to go over to his house with his soon to be ex-wife and he was locked in his bathroom.” He basically had to talk him down about doing himself in.

Vince brought up the fact that he was using a Nickel-plated gun to do it.

Vince was how he was said 

“If you paid that much for that kind of gun, I should off you.”

(Vince was always able to lighten the mood no matter how dire)

No joke, Vince, is like

“If you want to see it, it is the drawer with some others right next to your left foot.”

NO INTENTIONS OF WANTING ANYTHING TO DEAL WITH ANYTHING OF THIS MAGNITUDE

I still having my scar on my thumb from when I accidentally put in Cutco Hunting knife in the wrong way in the sheath when I was 16 and all the blood and the paper towel roll I had to use to pause the bleeding and never getting stiches, and not to mention not into any kind of fight, scuffle or even throw a punch ever in my life except wtih Renee and Boxing and my dad watching, wait is that a reason for migraines................

and or as well my biggest fear is stepping barefoot on broken glass and hearing crunch

I responded very politely and said “Un no thanks.”

Not To Mention To This Current Day

Being allergic to blood and having to sit down to get a splinter out still to this day, after he said this I abrubtly adjusted my left foot to not rest aside the desk drawer and push myself away.

I spoke.

“Vince in a as nonchalantly way as my dad would say in the exact manner , I come from a background that is of Blue Collar Working Class Jewish Family as you can best describe it.

1) My dad was complaining all the time when he could not paint on jobs because the group or whatever the more traditional and orthodox, would not allow my dad to work on the Sabbath!”

If that was a gripe that I heard him say a million times, even more than his coveted, “Now What?!” was that.

My social status growing up was the exception to say the least to the rule and our stereotype. 

Not Typical Anything In All Reality

1) We went going to drag races at Milan Dragway, 

2) My father and his father, my grandfather worked at Dana Spicer and only food we did not eat was all FOOD lol 

3) never thought of keeping Kosher because we all get headaches if we don’t eat on time and as well, fasting, not really in our playbook either.

One quick story when we were supposed to be fasting, my dad had donuts in the car from Duncan Donuts so we would, when the Ark was closed, go outside of the Synagogue, and grab a donut or two. Like I said, Kosher, nope I would tell people I keep hungry lol. A Custard donut never tasted so good as when it was not to be ate during fasting, excuse my sin. lol

Our ethos, was “Sorry g-d you know Bergs and Headaches, so we used that excuse.”

Back to whatwasIsaying, oh yeah. So, I told Vince

 “I actually married into the family that was too much so much that I walked down the isle with the mom and dad.”

So, he now knew whatever ‘society’ thought was not what I was concerned about in the least.

Last night I was watching the original Oppenheimer movies documentary and the thing that really stook in my mind was that he was always saying he was neither “German and or a Jew.” But he was both and another book was made that talks of how the Upper East Side Society that he was brought up that he desperately wanted and did everything he could possibly do to stay away from and being a closely associate with.

And I'm like, “no, not really. Yeah, it was a house painter, mom was a schoolteacher, didn't really have the money. We were working class, Jews, blah, blah. This, that, and the other thing. And very much different in the definition of society, group, or whatever word you wanted to say.”

So, he comes to ask me and he's like, so what do you like to watch? 

What do you like to do? What kind of hobbies are you into, what kind of movies do you watch???????

You know, you trying to get into my head to see what I like to do and everything like this. This is right after I try to hand them, hand them my. My note for my 2010 Honda Pilot. 

Because I didn't have any money for an attorney. And they gave it back to me. So, keep it.

"Go ahead. You know we'll go by month, by month or whatever."

So anyhow, so it goes like what would you like to watch? What do you like to do? You know what? You know what? What hobbies and the like.

President of the United States Adoration In His Office , also the MSS TItanic Replica, but that is not this story lol.

Folks Please Keep This is Mind

Keep in mind this guy did work for Langley, DC, Corporate Law, White Collar Crime, Federal Defense, Capital Crime etc you name it

I still to this day, this is the guy you call after you robbed the bank lol =) HE WAS THE SHIT as they say. Others would say he was a BullDog, and you got what that entailed. Anywhoo

Vince, having awards from a President of the United States and Pictures of Dignataries and Adorations that were bestowed on him from Langley, From Washinton, etc. on his wall, I shit you not, was trying to go back and make a a warm and fuzzy kind of connection.

Not too mention as well Hell, he had ties older than me, and older than my ex’s attorney as well lol.

Anywhoo, My comfort genre is Submarine movies. When I'm having very poignant forks in the road of life, it goes back to this…………….my escape.

Today it was starting the day going back over the small takes of the Red October on YouTube. Then watched the making of it and what and all that. This was when Alec Baldwin was a no name and as far as a star as being in the black whole. One of Sean Connery’s realistic roles that made up part of his oveall acumen to his legendary career. 

You know, the cast and everything like that. And. Let me go back to the onversation I was having with Vince 10 or so years ago.

Was that I said I like submarine movies and he was like, what? Like Das Boot?

And I'm like, yeah, “I love Das Boot.”

Das boot is one of my favorite movies of all time. And if those who don't know Das Boot, it's a German U boat ship, a German U boat movie. And it was done right at the end, kind of tentatively supposed to be the last gasp of fight the Nazis war machine World War II

And it's a long, long movie, around 3 hours, I think. It's got German subtitles and stuff like that and English subtitles, whatever. 

And I absolutely love, love, love that movie.

And today I'm going through, you know, a hard situation, you know, socially again, and I. Yeah, now. wanting to see Red October again? Buy or rent it from You Tube, which I probably will. I don't know why I go back to these movies during these times.

It's very interesting and I only bring up Oppenheimer and society because he is an Oppenheimer. I saw the whole documentary yesterday, not the movie that was just out, but the original documentary, and what was profound is that he repeatedly and profoundly didn’t want to be defined as a German or Jew or whatever.

And part and then they're talking about you want to be like society. And I go back to the conversation with Vince because he was worried that I was going to be so crushed because I wasn't involved in our society. You know, whatever he thought I was like all about it. But I wasn't.

And we started talking about some movies. There is something about the Submarine movie mystique. 

And I do recall it's most likely because I used to watch them growing up as a kid. It seemed like it when it was cold out at night and snow was on the ground. At the same time, as a treat we would put both couches together in the family room. It as well could have been a weekend when I worked with my dad. Maybe I didn't work with my dad.  

At the end of the day, we both had bad habits of not checking our pockets for the thinner soaked rags we had on the job.

Never on a job, did my dad not have a thinner soaked rag on him or close to him or both .
 

Well, post dozing off, I would be awakened with a burning sensation. Yep it was a rag that I had forgotten about or he had on him at times.

(Weird memory, but whatever I guess, back to) I would always watch. Submarine movies,

They very much comfort me. It's my comfort movie. It's my comfort genre.

Recently I watched DAS boot again and to my surprise I was reading the comments on the movie and found out that there was a DAS Boot Two, which I never knew =) 

*Also, there is the making of Das Boot which is phenomenal. I only discovered that this year actually……also great show.

If you don't know, it's good as well. And I go back to it. And I get comfort from it. It takes my mind of current personal crisis, watching……. of all things, submarine movies.

Quick Story took my dad. Me and my dad wanted to go see K19, the Widow Maker, when he was alive. And., I do remember that I spent way too much money because I wanted a hot dog and ate like a meal there and he was not too pleased back in the day it was 20 bucks or whatever because I went there without eating. He gave me a very awkward pause and very poignant exclamation at how much we spent – most likely a WTF really Kevin Moment.

But back to whatwasIsaying, we walked out of there and we were pretty much blown away by that story. If you haven't seen it and you like the genre as I do, look up “K19 The Widow Maker. “It is based on a true tragic story that is played by Harrison Ford as one of the main actors.

What is it about submarine movies that I find comfortable, like comfort in when I'm having a stressful time during my life? I think it is just that.

Let me set the scene for you all that this genre replays in my head at time of hard times.

Really Stand Out Still to This Day 

1) When I was watching it as a little kid, I was completely. Encompassed by you know, I was in the water with the actors, and I still love to say, “DIVE DIVE DIVE” My little kid voice in my head as say it, ringing back to when I was young again.

2) The Torpedo was dead ahead, and I needed all full rutter. (No idea what it meant, do understand it more now thought.

(Whoops forgot to take Concerta, one second lol)

3) And we are approaching crush death captain, we can’t take anymore.

4) Then the Death Charges are In the Water and the whole submarine is ramshackle from the left to the right.

I Absolutely Devoured that. In such a way I put myself on that submarine. – COMPLETELYAway from the real world…………….

There I was at home, on land, far from any real water, unless you count the JCC Lake that was about 2 miles behind our house, but I was all safe and sound in suburban Shangri la.  

But in those tense minutes, I was there, I was on the German U boat, or submarine, depending what scene was being shown at the time. I was there, getting jostled, wondering if I was going to see the next night watch, or the blue sky again, taking in the smells, and sounds and the complete explosions of the death charges that were always, always by the con.

Wondering if I would ever be able to see my sweetheart’ hand and our new son or daughter, you always happen to find out about right before you leave the dock!

(Also, I love saying, “I have the con” and not to mention when I am taking a corner sharp and fast “Into the chicane” lol)

And I wanted some kind of danger or excitement or chaos in my life, and I'm taking that right back. To what I just experienced and which? I needed some chaos or drama or something to keep myself happy.

Wait, still forgot Concerta, lol, this time I will I promise. Okay done finally, back to what was I saying.

Wow. That's incredible. I just made that. Branch.

I enjoy something of a strife or chaos. To keep me. I guess in line. And happy.

So, in that submarine movie, I was them. I was worried about, you know, pressure crush death. I was worried about, you know, the charges. I was worried about that, you know that I was worried about torpedoes and air and if we could get, if we could submerge or not submerge and stuff like that.

And that kind of movie genre has always, always been comforting to me. People might have this comfort movie that come from. I think my comfort movie is drama with chaos in the submarine movie. 

(Weird. I know it's nothing about cars, there's nothing about motors, there's nothing about engines, nothing about really, you know, time with my dad. But I really wanted to put this pen to paper.

I have undying adoration for submarine movies during times of my life where I struggle. I'd be curious to find out what movie genre is your movie genre to go to when you have issues in your life. Or when things aren't going well.

In the past, they'd be a movie about like Boiler room or be Wall Street or the The Big Short, or or be something about like greed and money and advancement and in corporate espionage or Lions At The Gate. You know, things like that. And now I've gone to. Movies that bring me back to when I was young. And happy and secure. And everything was good. 

But I could put myself in “perilous danger.”

With that being said, I had something in common with Oppenheimer, I was not part of the group, nor did want to be………not to mention he escaped to remote areas and I escape to remote oceans. =)

Maybe a far stretch in more ways than similar but that is kind of how I think about things. =)

Interesting Side Note

fyi I unfortunately spent hours looking for AI to make Picture of someone eating actually submarines in a soup bowl, but alas, just like the AI recitation, no luck. I ended up with this pic from Reddit go figure =)  

As I stated before This is a Story nothing but a Story, Tale and what happened way back when and the connection I made today. For those that want to make this into something it is not, guess what, it is just a tale being told nothing more. - warning due to being misinterpeted =)