Excedrin Applesauce at around 5 to Nasal Spray at 50 - Oy Vey Make These Headaches Please Go Away

It must have been 47 or years aga passed, but I can still recall the sound of the Excedrin being separated

in the apple sauce during the visit to the pancake house somewhere on our way to Pennsylvania. Who

would have thought a 5-year-old getting a headache, let alone a migraine in which Excedrin was called

for. Boy, to think that was the start of a lifetime of headaches, would be very depressing at the most and

completely not logical in the least.

But still, here I was my mom doting on me as she always does, chop, chop, chop basically a adult

medicine into tiny enough pieces to hid the bitter after tase because you are not supposed to be biting

into the Excedrin with their very tart and very bland as well as upsetting to the stomach that those pills

hold.

My dad after watching me eat the apple sauce and doing my damnedest not to bit into all of the pieces

by accident, “You should feel right better My Boy!” At that time, my dad was being an optimist, this was

very unlike him in all reality and the end he “Just Want to Be Left Alone.” Back then he was there

attempting and doing his best to make his ‘buddy’ me, feel better than what was I actually projecting

through withdrawn body language and sour look due to the tartness that did not hide in any way the

taste of the Excedrin.

Little did know then, what would be the trails and tribulations and late nights and days of me

experiencing one of the long-standing Berg traits, headaches, and migraines. We might have wealth, but

do we have depth and experience is what others are lucky enough to never experience, migraines. Sort

of doomsday word for something that many think, just get over it.

I would love to just get over it, trust me, I have thrown up more places than you can fathom attempting

to just go about my day. At sears it was in the Bathroom at Food town it was pushing carts, at the job

with my dad it was on a ladder, at work it was between account stops in Illinois. During audits it was

wherever there are no people around.

I can’t even imagine those that say, “I barely get headaches and I know I can’t deal with any such

migraine one.”

I think of the lost days, nights, dates, plans and trips and suffering with them while attempting to carry

on just like nothing is happening. If you don’t know, you are absoleffinglutely lucky. If you never had an

aura and wanted your head actually chopped off and or death to save you from the pain, count yourself

very fortunate. I can recall days growing up when I was crying and throwing up like a mad man as my

dad and or mom tried to get me to just calm down and go to sleep in the hope that rest would stop

them this time.

In the past, I could throw up and everything would be at a climax and then I would pass out. Now as I

have gotten older, that so called ‘gift’ I call it now, knowing you are at the end, I am not bestowed it

anymore. Now when it comes to throwing up, there is just more of it and my head is beyond pounding,

beyond crushing pressure, I feel that my pain has me transcend into another plateau all together, of just

absolute and complete misery state.

Then all I think about it “I can’t wait until I put this one behind me and get on with whatever I was trying

to do. Boy it is going to be such a relief.” Now at times, I am like will this ever, ever go away, or is the

one that is so prominent something is definitely not right in my head. Is this the one that can or possibly

signal an underlying element of grave consequence.

Nasal Surgery will fix it, its sinusitis, nope just so I can take meds when I have one. Drinking more water,

getting the right amount of sleep, not eating junk food, watching everything you take in and making a

journal, then you can spot a pattern. Nope, not even close, sometimes it makes absolutely no sense.

Later down the road, you have an impacted c5 that is what is really doing it. I do stretches and do

stretches and watch my posture and neck and do yoga, guess what, nope did not matter and maybe it

actually the cause of more of them due to over stretching. Good grief man, how in the hell.

Take this for a preventative, sure it works then it does not and then it does and then you don’t even

know if it really mattered. This works to get rid of them, well for now, and for later, well it might

actually cause them to happen more frequently and not able to stop them from occurring when they

are.

Talk about damn if you do, damn if you don’t and damn if it does not really matter one way and or the

other. You always have a headache so many have told me during everyday back and forth conversations

and plan cancellations and dinners, trips and short meet ups having to be not done.

Yeah, I always do, you think I am happy about it. Try living this life, hell this year I have had at least 5 or 6

and 2 were really so intense that everything I could possibly do and more did not work to stop them

from completely destroying my existence. Great welcome to my world, you can bitch about me, but

think about how it is to suffer from them.

I am unable to tell you how many times I have walked in the place I was living and those that I was living

with and or not, I would have to peel off my clothes as fast as possibly and head for a cold shower while

I am kneeling down and throwing up whatever and nothing that was in my stomach at the time. You

figure the cold shower would numb you, you are kind of right and kind of not.

Sometimes right after you would have to go to the bathroom and then you would have to be doing both

while attempting to try to tell others that you are not feeling the best and now is not the time and or

place to tell me anything, and you once again feel like walking death. But it makes no sense, just a little

while ago you were fine many would reply in retort, because you were, but now the migraine has

completely taken over your everything.

You are not the same person although you are still in the same skin. You are basically fighting for your

life against the insanity of the pain, nauseousness, pounding